Mmm... bad luck

Is this hospital season? Why is there so much sickness and death?

Bad: I just found out my grandmother is hospitalized.
Worse: She's been hospitalized for a month and I wasn't told.

Ugh.. more to add on top of my day-to-day worries.

Illness.. bleh..

After several nights of rapid sleeping schedule (we're talking about 7am to 12noon), and eating fast food for 'breakfast', 'lunch', and 'dinner' (at 3:00pm, 9:00pm, and 2:00am respectively), I have gotten sick. Coughing, runny nose, fever.. oh and the lab is FREEZING cold.

Finally finished my control project report, and now I'm studying frantically for my test tomorrow. (and therefore, naturally, I'm procrastinating by blogging)

Mourning

Please rest in peace, Cecilia Zhang. I believe in karma.. the person(s) responsible shall receive their 'consequences' in due time.

As mentioned in my earlier blogs back in October, I feel especially attached to this incident. Perhaps it is because she's also Chinese, or the fact that I have heard way too many of these 'kidnappings' that it finally got to me. In any case, I am outraged that somebody would commit such an act.. and sad at the same time, for that our society is so tainted with evils untold.

Another Day..

Still in the lab.. still doing the same project.. sometimes I wonder why I'm still here.

I went to see the engineering play tonight with a couple of friends. The play was called "Romeo, you idiot".. so obviously it was a parody of the famous Shakespearian play. It made the two families to be big mob families, and play with the different scenes and how obviously wrong it is. (such as, why did they even want to get married after seeing each other twice or three times?)

It was a good mental break from the tedious report writing I have been doing all day. Now, back to analyzing why my robust stability condition is satisfied..

Now it feels more like school!

I'm sitting in the computer lab by myself, and finally the feeling of familiarity is coming back to me. Yes, I have been here many times, spent countless hours here working on assignments and projects. I'm here again, doing my usual thing. For once, this is finally feeling like school..

First of Lasts

I just went to my last Boys and Girls Night at Fed Hall, as a student of this university. Surprisingly, it wasn't as good as I expected it to be.. we sneaked in from the backdoors because the line up was just insane. (To justify, we did stand in line for an hour and a half) Once inside, the group of us had a couple of drinks and started dancing. The music wasn't particularly good, and for some strange reason I got really sad and depressed as the night progressed.

Usually I could find a good reason why I'm upset. This time, I just cannot pinpoint it. Ugh, I hate this feeling. Oh well, this is the first of many 'lasts' I will have at this university.

I'm not funny (Part Deux)

The speech giving is now over.. except for one more impromptu on the last day of class next Wednesday. I cannot prepare for that, so I am not going to worry about it. I gave my entertaining speech today on procrastination - props go to Adrian for the idea. It is only fitting that I procrastinated to write the speech, and actually didn't finish it until early this morning. :P I also completed the evaluations of two other speeches to the best of my abilities.

Once again, I am going to reiterate the fact that I am not funny, given the class' reaction to my speech today. However, I fixed a few delivery problems that has been nagging me for ages. Let's hope I continue to keep it up.

Now, time to cram for today's test.

Oops..

My blog didn't publish for the past two days for some reason.. oops. Now it's fixed.. of course, the only reason why I noticed it was because I was procrastinating from my speech writing. Hahaha.

Who said the final semester was easy?

I have so much work to do for this week and next week, it's unbelievable. Two tests, one 'extended' assignment, two evaluations, one speech.. oh and don't forget about studying for final examinations. I seriously cannot wait until this is all over.

Graduation Ball

It was really cool to see everybody so dressed up.. the next time I see all my classmates all dressed up will probably be at one of their weddings. The food was.. well, catered food. There's really not much to say about that except my table was shocked to have received SEVEN vegetarian plates. Luckily the server found us some Chicken meals. Took more pictures, chatted with a few people I haven't seen in a while, and then got back on the limo for the after party.

At the after party, more drunkenness ensued. Madness was had by all. Hope to have more parties before everybody goes in different directions.. kinda sad that the group finally realizes how to 'party' in our last semester being a student...

Thanks for all those who tried to ensure I had a good time, and my table for putting up with my lame jokes. It was difficult enough for me to go through the night while being there.. one step at a time..

Still going at it..

I'm still studying for my term test for tomorrow.. well, technically, later today. I didn't think that studying for one chapter of material can take this long. Well, apparently, my procrastinating skills have reached a new high.

I'm Not Funny

During my public speaking class today, we had to give an entertaining 'impromptu' speech. Basically we are given a topic, and 10 minutes to general a 90 second speech. The speech is supposed to be light, entertaining, and most of all, funny.

Those who have known me for a while should know that I'm not funny. Okay, more specifically, I can be LAME funny, but not "Haha" funny. Besides, I am only good for on-the-spot laughter. To prepare a 90 second speech is stretching my funny-capacity by a mile.

In addition to that, my topic is: "A day in the life of a sock"

The conclusion? I'm not funny. Sure, I made a couple of puns (I am 'hole'y.. hehe), some movie references (at the washer, I held onto her, and utter the words, "You jump, I jump").. but nobody really laughed. I got some giggles, that's it. Compared to some of the other speeches, mine seemed so dry and boring.

T minus 3.75

All right, onto page 3! Especially when page 1 was very well written, page 2 was utter garbage.. hopefully page 3 won't follow the trend.

Instead of writing my paper, I went and read people's blog pages. Read a specific entry and made me think about my situation too.. I certainly can relate to the feeling of 'blahness', and sometimes I just have to learn to accept that I cannot change things overnight.

Should be working..

I know I should be working.. but.. ugh. Why am I so restless!?

Somebody Lock Me Up..

I'm supposed to be writing my psychology term paper, and I decided to do a psychological disorder test to procrastinate... the results are a little concerning.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Very High
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	Very High
Antisocial:	High
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	Very High
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

So, who's going to lock me up and send me away to that building with padded walls and funny looking jackets?

New Pain, Old Wounds

The old wounds haven't even begin to heal yet!.. *sigh* Sometimes I don't understand why I do it to myself - constantly looking for opportunities to take a stab at myself.. My friends have already told me how I always go looking for trouble, when it is so much easier to just let things be. I guess I'm just not the type to sit around and wait for things to happen for me..

Maybe patience REALLY is a virtue.

Time Flies

Before I knew it, it's already March. In fact it's mid-March. Two more weeks (+/- 2 days) until lectures are over, then 3 final exams later, I'll be done. Meanwhile, still have a term paper + a speech + three term tests to tackle before me.. Better get on with it.

Fear

Is fear a natural instinct that we possess? Or is it a figment of our imagination? I sometimes wonder if we are trained to be 'afraid'.. trained to be fearful of certain things. Perhaps it is a social norm - the rest of society fears it, so why shouldn't you? Sometimes I question myself when I start getting scared.. am I *really* scared, or do I make myself scared because TV tells me so?

I don't know.

Keeping Myself Busy

Sometimes the best way to stop myself from thinking too much is to keep myself busy - but what if I feel so defeated that I don't even want to keep myself busy, then my thoughts will overwhelm me and make me even more defeated, resulting in an inevitable downward spiral that will ultimately lead to my downfall?

Busy Busy Weekend

Still up on a Saturday night (or early Sunday morning).. working on my speech for my public speaking class. There are still more assignments being piled up, and I'm just not getting through them. Plus bills to pay, and need to figure out the money situation.. doesn't look like I'll be able to support myself up to the April checkpoint.

New Updates on the Tech Front..

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For those who care, I have added an RSS feed using the new Atom format, provided by Blogger. You can get the link to my feed on the left hand side bar. It is very helpful to keep track of all the new posts from various weblogs.

As well, I have implemented trackback provided by Haloscan. It allows me (and of course, you, my faithful readers) to know whether other blogs have referenced my posts. If you want more information, check out the Haloscan Trackback FAQ.

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I'm feeling.. blahhhhh

The midterm was over before it even began! My fate is sealed and I don't think anything could have prepared me for that. Oh well, as long as it's over and I don't have to figure out how much money I need to save now to pay for my daughter's university in 15 years given that tuition increases by 4% each year from here onwards with my investment plan having a 7% average return.. blah blah blah.

Heard from pretty disturbing news today (disturbing at the motives of the people behind the incident, not the incident itself), and that just did not help my already-pissed-off mood about my midterm and the general state of my life. It seems like I'm going in some pretty deep downward spiral lately.. need to pick myself up and move on.. the best is yet to come. (I hope!)

Back to the library!

You're like a second home to me. After deserting you for a good part of the term, I'm back. Yes, lads and lassies, it's time to revisit the library study area. Strangely enough, I felt so at home when I sat down at a study carrel. Naturally, I placed all my 'study utensils' (that's what I call them) at their proper place as if I have never taken a hiatus from studying here. Not surprisingly, I whipped through that chapter of Business Finance faster than I ever read while studying at home.

Funny enough, I'm once again blogging from the library after taking a short nap just now. Some things never change.. (especially my routine for procrastination!)

Study for midterm.. or..

Do a stupid quiz and get an amazingly accurate result!

Take the ICQuiz!

Leap Day

The last time leap day came around, I was still in first year.. now I'm just about to graduate. Just goes to remind me how much older I have become. Been pretty busy the whole week with school and, well, more school. Took on a side-project because I decided I wasn't "busy" enough. *clears throat* It's just a continuation of my fourth year design project, but this time there are no academic consequences attached to it.