Ever wonder why you put up so much for something that you might not even want? Or that you don't know if you want? That's how I feel about university sometimes. I mean, higher education - wow, that sounds exciting and wonderful. I am a firm believer of that - I am not in the university to make money. I do have a strong desire to learn, and that is obviously demonstrated by my strong affinity to take things apart and break things in the process. The real question is : do I really have to be here to receive the 'higher learning' that I always hoped for? Could I not learn elsewhere?

Whatever happened to 'enjoy life while you're young' and 'life is too short to be upset/sad/(insert your own motivational adjective)'?

School has been catching up on me - finally. Lots of labs and assignments coming up, plus midterms are riding awfully close. I am not joking, midterms are in three weeks or so. I am personally a little bit scared already, but should contain my fear in case I need a bigger dosage of it to make me panic a little (when I panic, I study like a madman) :)

Failed checklist for my work report. Great. Now I got it back and I failed it on some mistake that I'm not even sure if it is actually a mistake. Oh well, just have to fix it and resubmit the report - otherwise I won't be able to pass the term.

Surprisingly, I have not been swamped with work yet! At about the same time last semester, I was already on my 'come near me and I'll kill you' mood. This time around, it seems pretty relaxed and not so disorganized. It feels good though - I have good feelings about this semester. I think I will learn a lot, and hopefully out-perform myself once again. However, I have learned one important thing from my experience in the summer - never neglect to do other things in my life. I suppose I had given up a lot of things when I focused on school, and now that I think back, was it really worth it?

Life is really like those adventure book games - always faced with difficult decisions. Should I go down the road or follow the unicorn? :) You know those books where you choose your path and then flip to page 23? Then you make another decision and flip to page 79? Yeah, those.

I found out today that they are no longer mailing us our report cards. Welcome to the digital age, ladies and gentlemen. Now we have to 'print' our own grade reports. How authentic is that. Really. I can just make up my marks.. but.. uhh.. that would be an academic offence.

All the job postings start tomorrow - so it's once again time for the routine of photocopying resumes, figuring out which jobs to apply for, and keep count of how many I have already applied. I really hope there will be enough jobs for all of us in my class. It would suck if some people couldn't get jobs because there just weren't enough!

Went out to Toronto for the weekend - needed to relax. It has been a stressful week. So I slacked this weekend - something I haven't done in a while. I am a perfectionist + workaholic - suitable for the corporate world today. Time to really settle down and start working - this semester is going to be 'interesting' :)

Working on an assignment right now, and as usual, I like to blog while I am working. A good way to procrastinate I guess!

So it's over - I finished it at 10:19am on Tuesday morning. Rushed to the printer at 10:38am, and then to the Graphics outlet at 11:23am. Printed, nicely put together, and ready to be submitted. Ahhh :) Finally!

The feeling of completeness is great. Not only regarding this report, but of anything that is important to me. Whether it be a school term (I'm always so glad that a term is over, regardless how poorly I did on my final examinations), a work project, or just something as trivial as cleaning up the dump I call my room. Of course, there's the completeness in life that we all long for. I never really believed in finding completeness in oneself when looking for a partner, but my feeling towards that has somewhat changed over the past years. :P

Now I'm freaking out. I have less than 24 hours to complete a report that I have barely started. No joke. I have finished reading most of the documents I printed, and have a pretty good idea what to write about. Now it's down to writing it and actually making sense of everything. Rest assured, I have already stocked up on my coffee supply. Looks like it'll be a long night..

On a side note, my girlfriend was supposed to be arriving back from her vacation at 12:30am. Well, turns out that the stupid customs over at Vancouver took a little too long to process all the passengers on her flight. So now she missed her connecting flight back to Toronto, and she has to take a later flight. Not that it's a problem normally, but the flight arrives in Toronto at 6:00am! Now talk about unreasonable! It's not even her fault for missing the flight. Adding to the fact that my report is due at officially 4:30pm tomorrow, I'm totally stressing out.

Oh did I mention that she has 10 hours of classes tomorrow? Yeah, add that to the bad luck list.

Ah well, life sucks. What can I say? :) Just bite it and move on! <- my new motto in life ^_^

Okay, so I have less than a day to finish it and I'm not even half way done. This is just great - I don't think I'll be sleeping tomorrow. Actually, in fact, I won't be sleeping ANYTIME soon. My school term has just started and I'm already stuck pulling an all-nighter during the first week of classes - and this is not even because of labs. This is extremely sad. I should be in bed right now, get rested and face the challenges DURING the term, and not now!

Alright, enough whining already. Time to buckle down and do some last-minute reading. Hopefully I'll be able to pick up something useful from all these documents I just printed, and have something interesting to write in my report.

I have re-discovered something today that I have known for a long time. I am the laziest person I know. I procrastinate whenever I could, and put off work as much as possible. No joke, it's taken me close to two days to come up with a work term report topic, an outline, and the introduction. I haven't even started writing the main body yet, and it's already dinner time. My friends invited me over for dinner so I will be leaving in a short while, so there goes another hour or so being unproductive. Oh well, it's my fault afterall. :)

Dammit, I'm procrastinating as we speak!

There's nothing worse than realizing your own problem, but yet not correcting yourself.

I hate writing reports. Especially the ones that I have no idea what I am writing about. It's almost 6pm and I haven't even begun writing anything of substance yet. Still trying to formulate the purpose of my report, but at least I have finished formatting the report. Yes I know I got the procedures reversed, but you can't blame me for trying to be productive even when I am procrastinating :P

Oh right, forgot to update the fact that I'm right now struggling with my work term report. You know the report that most people dread after a co-op work term? How am I supposed to write thirty pages on a topic that I barely touched on during the past four months? Right now I'm trying to read as much as possible and to get a good feel for the entire outline. I'm afraid it will be a long and stressful weekend ahead of me..

Happy New Year everybody! I notice it's a bit late to say that, but I have just been drafted back into school so things have been a little chaotic to say the least. What can I say, sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do. There's really nothing new going on right now, other then the fact that my friends that are to leave the country have left. Hope they have fun where they are!

Wow, so much as happened since the last time I blogged. My trip to Montreal was tres interesting! (pardon my French) A couple of us went clubbing at this club called "Cafe Campus". Although they did play some weird French pop songs (which by the way does not sound as bad as everybody puts it), we still had a great time dancing and drinking the night away. The city is definitely different under a different season, the snow covered the entire city and it feels really like a white Christmas. Of course except that I actually returned to Toronto before Christmas.

For the past couple of days I have just been catching up with friends. It certainly makes up for the time when I was in school and didn't keep in touch with anyone. One of my friends is going down to Connecticut for eight months, another one is going over to Germany for four. Hopefully they won't cause too much trouble while they are away. :)