Thanks for all the fish

It has been nothing but a turbulent ride these past two weeks - disappointment in myself, mixed with an embodiment of jealousy and hatred, a sense of loss and found; Inspired, put down, inspired again. I suppose without experiencing the multitude of emotional challenges in life, I wouldn't have lived at all.

Thanks to those who stuck by me, and showed me many kind words of encouragement. Thanks for the 'tough love' - although it's not something I needed to hear at the time, it truly provided an alternative outlook to living.

Although, I cannot say that I have fully recovered, knowing that there are people who will sit there and listen to me rant is more than enough for me to continue ranting. In time, my friends, the ranting will end - eventually.

Drowning

I feel like I'm drowning, and instead of fighting for my life, I'm just letting myself sink to the bottom of the ocean.

Perhaps it is a good time to give up.

Remebering.. or not

Something else I'll Remember

It bothered me to read that some companies are even banning the sale of poppies on their premises. In a pure business perspective, I don't even see how the sale of poppies will reduce sales or diminish their corporate image. Now that the story is out, I wonder if their well-guarded corporate image is tainted?

Reflection

To those whom I worried, I apologize. I did not intend to alarm anybody.. I think I'm in the state of mind where everything bothers me. Come to think of it, I barely understand myself. Heck I don't even know what makes me happy, or makes me sad. Seems like I have a lot more to learn about myself before I start complaining.

Wavering.. back and forth..

Sometimes I just know that history likes to repeat itself - and it's happening once again. Perhaps it's just me, I am the type to induce trouble in my life. Seems like nobody understands me, or even tries to..

Perhaps I am better off dead.

Deficiency

I am really lacking something.. I wish I knew what it was.

Weekend Festivities

It's the usual weekend with a bit of a twist.. had a birthday celebration (a week late) with my classmates. It was fun seeing everybody again, talking about how the final work term is treating them, and catching up on life in general. Had dinner, played some games, and cut the cake. Got a really nice present from them - a bottle of Armani aftershave! Whoohoo! Time to try out something new. :P

I also got a book that was on my wish list - thank you so very much. I didn't know people actually looked at my wish list!

I went shopping for a pair of trousers on Sunday, but didn't find anything suitable. Saw Kill Bill with Chris and Tania at night - it was cool. Blood splattering everywhere. Mmm. Martial art goodness.

Microsoft Employee Fired Over a Blog..

eclecticism

So this guy was fired because he posted a picture of several Apple G5s being shipped to the Microsoft Campus in Redmond. Big deal. If the intent is to stop the spread of this 'news', then the management made a big big mistake. The news is now all over the world (even /.ed), and there is no going back.

Unless they want the world to know that Microsoft likes Apple G5s, then that's another story.

How to Date a Geek

I think all girls should read this.. ahem :)

MSN Dating & Personals - Loving your geek, tolerating his hobbies

It's so true.. so very true!

Disappointment

I originally didn't want to post this, thinking it might reflect bad on me. However, this is *MY* space. I want to remember that I was here at one point in life.

On the night of my birthday, I felt a little restless knowing that I'm supposed to be out celebrating my annual 'day of aging'. Yet I was studying for my GRE at home. Decided that I need to live a little tonight, I called up my friends in town to have a small celebration while studying at a coffee shop. I thought, that's gotta spice up my evening a bit.

So I bought three pieces of my favourite chestnut cake, brought a candle, and prepare to have the smallest birthday celebration ever. Two friends were supposed to join me, but I ended up eating two pieces of cake and blowing out the candle with only a friend.. who went out and asked the smokers outside Tim Horton's to light up the candle for me. (must have been embarrassing, thanks dude)

I can't say I'm not a bit disappointed.. but I guess it starts the year with a bit of bitterness. Perhaps it's a rite of passage.. time for me to move on from worrying about petty little things like this to bigger things.